Meltdown to 2020!

HEY HEY!



Ya'll its time. I have lost seventy pounds, I need to lose my last twenty-five and start my new year off RIGHT!

I am A BIG believer in starting goals the second you feel motivated. You do not need a Monday to start on a goal and you definitely don't need a new year to see progress! We just get up and get it!!


I am so ready to have a year that I start off with all NEW goals. It seems like every year I start off with a weight loss goal. I want to look good that summer and be fit! What if this year I get to have a fitness goal where I get to push myself to become stronger and that was the whole focus?! How nice would that be to not have weight loss over my head!

The way that I am looking at the next two months are completely different than from when I was seventy pounds heavier, just starting my journey. My mentality is completely different now and I know I have what it takes to make this happen. When I picture 2020, I see myself tackling totally different goals than what my goals were for this year.

For those of you who follow me on instagram, have heard about my meltdown to 2020 group. I think there is some confusion there. This group is completely free. It is just a support group for others looking to crush goals and be there to motivate and encourage others on their journeys! I don't sell any type of fitness program.

I am so excited and pumped to have finished my first week! The first week is always the easiest because that is when you are most motivated. I am not going to lie though, it has already come with obstacles. I started my period on the day I started my meltdown group on facebook! If you have been following my for a while then you have heard me talk about my endometriosis (for those who aren't familiar with endometriosis). This week came with so much pain and complete exhaustion. To the point where my workouts would put me out for the day. It was so awful. I hate napping, I think its a waste of time. I am the person who has to go, go, go and keep the momentum, but of course the first week came with baggage.
It didn't stop there either. My anxiety started to get high because I would come home from the gym and have to lay down on the couch while Maverick ran around and destroyed my cabinets apart. The laundry started to pile up high as well as the dishes and toys were everywhere! I hate having a messy house and it causes so my anxiety to sky rocket. I finally started to feel better when my back threw a curve ball. YOU GUYS I AM STILL IN SO MUCH PAIN. My back has been killing me for the last few days. Nothing has taken care of the pain completely yet. I have a soothing lotion, ibuprofen and heating pad to help relieve most of the pain, but as soon as i am up, or when I go to workout the pain comes back so much worse and it is so frustrating!

All I can think about is how this is not the right time to be starting new goals and working harder towards my ultimate goal, but these things happen all the time!

There are always going to be obstacles in your way. The universe is never going to sit back while you work, everything is going to be against you, before it is going to work with you. There are going to be times where you can only do what you can do. For me it was working out when I could, resting as much as I could and watching what I was eating.

We seem to go into this mentality that "well its not working out, so I might as well do..." and then fall deeper into the trap of laziness and unhealthy eating habits. We find ourselves in a deeper hole that we will eventually have to dig ourselves out of, so why not fight the battles you can and be that much more ahead?

I bet the second week will have just as many obstacles as the first, but I am ready! It feels amazing to not only feel good, but look good too! That is why I am willing to work hard during the holidays.

I am seriously so pumped!
I am counting down the days to 2020 and I am freaking living for it!
YOU GUYS WE GOT THIS!


-Kayleen